Awakened

Finally snapped out of my funk-I think it was about a two + year funk.  Between everything that happened with my daughter's dad and the most recent guy . . .maybe that was why. I never really let myself grieve anything. Grieve the losses that I had-my almost marriage, being accused of cheating (my ex told mutual friends that he wasn't sure the baby was his-I found out about the pregnancy four days after we called off the wedding-the child is yours dummy), being left again after the birth with no explanation. And then getting into a not-relationship that turned into one just to be left again. But then-just a couple days ago. . .I realized how unhappy I had been for so long-because I was suddenly extremely happy. I felt good.