Break on through to the other side

Very excited.  After some tumultuous times with my daughters other family, we finally had a sit down talk like respecting adults.  I've been saying for months, years even-since I knew I wasn't going to be with the dad while I was pregnant, that I wanted my daughter to have a relationship with that side of her family.  But they've been treating me like I'm this evil person.  I found out why, my ex's dad had another family-an ex-wife and daughter that he's barely seen.  And I unfortunately got lumped into the "league of evil exes" because of it.
But after yet another screaming match with my ex, I drove over to his parents house, and got into it with his dad. But one thing that my ex did NOT get from his dad-is the power to calm down and have a rational adult conversation.  But after having that with his parents, his mom came in afterward, I can see a light at the end of this tunnel. I'll be very excited when I can start posting more positive things!  Just that 30 minutes with his parents gave me hope for a better time dealing with her dad.

Just go away. . . if it were only that easy

One of these days, I'm going to be happy. Everything is going to work and my daughter's dad and I will start to act like adults for our daughters sake. 
But apparently that time is not now.  This weekend is just a blur of missed communication and screaming (all him) and I don't know what else I can do beside keep asking for some kind of meeting with a neutral party.  But, that's not going to happen either.  I don't want to get mean, I want my girl to know her dad but I also want to be treated with respect.
One day. . .

Bitter is as bitter does

A big part of my motherhood journey is finding the balance between the "single" and the "mom" parts of my title.  I've been nothing but a doormat to these guys who feel the need to come into my life and mess it up.  Some were unintentional, but one--just doesn't get it.  Why on earth would you decide to tell a just dumped single mom that you wish you could go back in time and be with her?  And then get all butt hurt when she tries to call you on your crap? 
It's the same with my daughter's father--he turns about 5 when he doesn't get his way (and half the time, I don't even know what his way is, he won't talk to me about anything important) and runs and tells his lawyer that I'm being mean.  Awww, poor guy.  
But as I balance these jerks with my daughter's care. . . it's becoming a tiring battle.  Between school so I can make a better life for us and work (which contains the same high school crap I longed to get away from).  I'm tired. I feel like I fail at every turn. The only plus is that my daughter is happy and healthy. 

I know that's all I need. . . I know that's all I need. . . .I know that's all. . . .